!..ما بين لحظة

هل كان الهواء الذي يتغلغل
في أحشائها جزءٌ منك!
ام كان زفيرها من دون انفاسك
..لايكتمل له شهيق؟

...عن هروب الفراشات

..في لقائنا الاخير
نفتقد فيه اناقة الكلمات
تتخلى وجوهنا عن الضحكات
تحل مكانها الابتسامات المرهقة
والمجاملات الزائفة
تحدثني في كل شئ
احدثك في الاشئ
اعرف اني ماعدت همك الاول
تعرف انك ماعدت في مفكرة افكاري

تغتالني الافكار في هذه اللحظات
لا ادري لأي ذنب اعتذر
اراى نظراتك وكأنها تستجوبني
تطالبني بالاعتراف على جرائم
لم ارتكابها في مدينة حبك

وفي صمتك هذا دائما ماتلعب نظراتك
دور المحقق الذي لايثق دوما في اقوالي
تختبر بمكر في كلماتي احداث حياتي
تفتش بعنف في دفاتر احلامي
تفتح بفضول خزائن ذاكرتي و حقائب ايامي

انا التي تعرف سجل جرائمك العاطفية
والتي تنتهي دائما بالقتل في ظروف غامضة
لا اعرف ماذا افعل ؟
آنتظر لاشاركك في جريمة اخري لقتل قلبي
ام اهرب بقلبي منك؟

على دخان سيجارك من غفوتي اعود
اجمع اوراق افكاري المتناثرة هنا وهناك
اخفيها بحذر في حقيبة قلبي
حيث لا تعرف نظرتك ان تلعب دور المحقق هناك
فهي لاتفهم ماتقوله لغة القلب

ننظر الي ساعتنا نتجنب النظر الي عيوننا
نعتذر..
فقد اخذنا الكثير من وقت بعضنا
لم يعد هناك سبب للبقاء
نتبادل الجمل القصيرة بيننا
تتسابق عيوننا تخطف النظرات السريعة لنا
نغادر مكاننا ونترك بيننا ...حروف كلمات ..ونظرات خاطفة
صمت قاتل... وبقايا ذكريات
..

Reality pill...!

Dear. . ., you wouldn't read this lines ever.. however ,
it's something like venting.., poor you will never know it because it's healthy ..psychically and mentally, wich you really deprived of it,..hun.. we live in different worlds,My reality is different than yours.It's okay for people to have different backgrounds and become friends...It's okay for people to have different opinions and share them.It's okay for people to push their differences aside and just get along.

and you know what?
I wouldn’t change and I’d NEVER EVER give up on being who I am!
I'm sorry you feel that it's not OKAY, ..I really pity you..

Women with Big Eyes!..

Ever have one of those nights her head is full of jumbled thoughts,
worries, and revelations?It’s after 2 a.m. and as dead tired as she was, she can’t seem to sleep! it’s been building the past few days…a growing sense of anxiety and sinking Have she made a grave mistake?or just she became more sensitive lately
she loves her job and her community, but she is exhausted lately she stay away of writing her private thoughts,diary, memories even her daily quick sticky notes so she thought of writing all actually nonsense thought to clear her head and her heart in order to get rid of this feelings.

El Tango De Roxanne.. Press play...and..Why does my heart cry
Feelings I can't fight agh..Why does my heart cry..?
unconsciously she just dig deep and opened her hypothetical dark black box,
where she bury all her bitter hours,awkward moments,sore memories,
infinite number of hate images and SMSes, sick minded people stupid smiles, anxiety voices,,,,etc.

as it's officially one year passed by she madly resent those days now,it hurts..
with all her green-eyed monster.., anger inside ,she recalled him ..
his name.. his face crossed up clearly on her mind ..she cried with her silent tears and all she wanted to do is hold a grudge ..yea it HURTS!..
Gosh! That silly smile again, it always provoked me..This selfish he holds inside his soul has blinded him it seems! she broke up with him although they were never together...how ironic.! ..it has been most of her awkward days in her life

with her coffee while she witnessing an amazing seen of the moon ,she cleared her mobile msgs… she read every single word…remembered each situation as if it was yesterday…then deleted all those who brings her painful memories… numbers and messages from people who happened to be close to her at a certain time in her life…and now they are only memories of the past…it was as if she was trying to erase certain period of her life… But then again,she keep telling herself… No, I wasn’t doing so… it’s just that… whenever I read those messages I seem to be getting hurt all over again……she smiled and told her self that sometimes you has to forsake some painful memories ,so that you can be able to move on forward in your life…

25.10
14.11
Reema
love XX

بيني وبيني

ارفض قواعد اللغة المنطقية
وبعيدا عن المفردات والكلمات العادية
ابداء حديث معك كنت بدائته مع نفسي
حديث بيني وبيني
بيني التي هي انا وبيني التي هي انت
حديث بدائته معك ..
معك التي هي نفسي .
ونفسي التي هي انت
وانت حياة وروح نفسي
فهل تكتمل نفسي بدون روح
!..

Awkward Silence..

::want coffee!....

m : Okay. You're crying now...you can't cry and talk about a funny movie!!

xx: No i'm not... really i'm not!.

m: No fake smiles....What's going on?

xx: Nothing.... I just feel misplaced...like you got all the right things
in all the wrong places...figure it!

m: what is the hell i'm so worried about you .. Why do you think a lot?

xx :Well, it would just be a waste of time..
you weren’t there when it first started, you can’t help. You know?

m:... I know i can always help. ...We both know that!

xx: no,no this time believe me..all wht i can say i feel like i don’t need, Everything. Just everything..!


m: Why are you giving up on yourself?

xx:.....can we just sit here in silence...?

...

m : You betraying yourself!?

xx :......Want coffee!
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Reem
Love x x

You give me better days..LOL!!

And really you give me HELL better days in my life !!